I thought that I would write a quick post outlining a few things and catch you up on what has been happening, as readers I do believe that you are owed that much.
Lately, I have been focusing more on reviews. This is something that I tend to do whenever I have hit a personal blank. In December, I shared a very personal piece. I was exceptionally careful the way I worded it and had a few members of my family proof-read the post, before hitting publish. However, some time after the post had been published, I was contacted by family and instructed to take the post down, as I was painting my family in ill manner. I could go into detail as to the back and forth of it all, the emotions and hurt caused by the whole ordeal and basically how I have since had backs turned on me, but I have chosen not to. I believe that it isn’t essentially important and at the end of the day, months later, I found out that neither party actually read the post and were playing broken telephone, acting on the high of emotions instead of being level-headed. With that being said, I still stand by what I said in my post and believe that we, as a community, need to look out for each other’s children because it does take a village to raise a child. What makes us human is the need to help others, I have witnessed in playgrounds and playroom how other parents will help my own, without a second thought, and I will do the same. It is a duty that we all take on, as parents. We act quick and we assist.
I have also been reading more and more about blogging. It’s been a tough topic to discuss in the numerous groups available, as feelings tend to get in the way and very quickly a topic can go from innocence to a personal attack on absolutely everybody. It’s pretty whack. There are so many ways that people think you should approach the situation – the right way also known as their way. And I have been toying with the idea of adopting these methods but I just don’t get it. I don’t see that working for this space. My space.
I have the freedom to carve it into whatever I want it to be. I don’t see blogging as a career – I don’t ever aspire it to be. I like my blog being a space where I can share the things I like, escape into a world of beauty galore and just be able to speak my mind, document Axl’s milestones and the challenges we face, as parents. All this business talk becomes so complicated and I just feel that it isn’t for me. I have a job and one that I love. I wouldn’t mind turning my love for blogging into a writing career, but I don’t want to turn my blog into a business. Make sense? Yes, I do occasionally get paid for advertising and for running campaigns and I do love partnering up with brands who I love but I don’t want to feel the pressure of my blog living up to anyone else’s expectations but my own. I don’t want it to become a chore because I feel that is when I will lose my enjoyment of it.
So with all that going on – I have been shying away from the real stuff. And there is a lot of real stuff happening right now. Right from depression peaking it’s ugly head out again, to Darren being retrenched and us figuring out how we are going to make up, for the third of our income lost. I am also in a much better space over my body and am currently in over my head with work – but happy and grateful for it!
I will be covering a bunch in an upcoming life lately post and maybe a few others that will be more in depth. I also have a big announcement coming soon, about an exciting collaboration and tons of upcoming competitions. So thanks for sticking around while I figure this stuff out.